balloons

so i was thinking...

you know when you're in a situation
where the uncomfortableness,
the pressure,
the stress,
the anger,
the sadness,
the confusion
seems to grow with every passing
day
hour
minute
.
.
.
second

and you feel like a balloon
on the verge of bursting?

we often get to the point where we ask the question,
"should i just let it burst in its own time,
or should i pop it myself?"

either way it will hurt.
to have your surroundings and form ripped apart is going to hurt,
whether you allow it to happen naturally or force it along.

however,
i was thinking...

i don't think we are the balloon.

i think we are the air inside...


the balloon is simply the situation... it is either growing or shrinking based on us.

so the question then becomes

do you release the situation, allowing it to quickly deflate and whiz chaotically throughout the room?
you weren't meant to be trapped in that balloon anyway.

or

do you release yourself slowly? (sometimes making that high pitched, irritating screech as you go)
you may be completely released with a stretched and deflated balloon lying on the table
or
you may find a level within the balloon that is not simply tolerable, but comfortable and perfect.

i've done both. i've released myself from
a situation chaotically
and
a situation slowly.

neither is wrong.

neither is less scary.

but i think both are better than letting the situation explode on you.