Friday, October 16, 2009

balloons


so i was thinking...

you know when you're in a situation
where the uncomfortableness,
the pressure,
the stress,
the anger,
the sadness,
the confusion
seems to grow with every passing
day
hour
minute
.
.
.
second

and you feel like a balloon
on the verge of bursting?

we often get to the point where we ask the question,
"should i just let it burst in its own time,
or should i pop it myself?"

either way it will hurt.
to have your surroundings and form ripped apart is going to hurt,
whether you allow it to happen naturally or force it along.

however,
i was thinking...

i don't think we are the balloon.

i think we are the air inside...


the balloon is simply the situation... it is either growing or shrinking based on us.

so the question then becomes

do you release the situation, allowing it to quickly deflate and whiz chaotically throughout the room?
you weren't meant to be trapped in that balloon anyway.

or

do you release yourself slowly? (sometimes making that high pitched, irritating screech as you go)
you may be completely released with a stretched and deflated balloon lying on the table
or
you may find a level within the balloon that is not simply tolerable, but comfortable and perfect.

i've done both. i've released myself from
a situation chaotically
and
a situation slowly.

neither is wrong.

neither is less scary.

but i think both are better than letting the situation explode on you.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

waiting

after an hour and a half of shopping for flowers with my sister, makenzy and i found this guy...


makenzy loved him.


i love her!

Friday, June 5, 2009

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

naughty kitty

jasper!


i'm glad you kept yourself busy today.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

my favorite green


It's not that easy being green
Having to spend each day the color of the leaves

When I think it could be nicer being red, or yellow or gold

Or something much more colorful like that


It's not easy being green

It seems you blend in with so many other ordinary things

And people tend to pass you over 'cause you're

Not standing out like flashy sparkles in the water

Or stars in the sky


But green's the color of Spring

And green can be cool and friendly-like

And green can be big like an ocean, or important

Like a mountain, or tall like a tree


When green is all there is to be

It could make you wonder why, but why wonder why

Wonder, I am green and it'll do fine, it's beautiful

And I think it's what I want to be

happy joe's

who needs it when i can make this...



my own blt pizza... and it was amazing.

1 pizza crust (i used the martha white, thin and crispy mix from wal-mart)
pizza sauce
2 cups mozzarella cheese
1/2 package of canadian bacon, chopped
5 slices bacon, cooked and crumbled
1/2 cup colby jack cheese
mayonnaise
shredded lettuce
chopped tomato

follow the directions for your crust, but i always partially bake my crust before i top it. this was baked at 475 for 5 minutes on a pizza stone. (that is HOT. be sure your oven is somewhat clean, otherwise your smoke alarms tend to tell you and your building differently... oops) then, top with sauce, mozz, canadian bacon, bacon, and finish with colby jack. put back in oven until it is as done as you want it. (this one got really dark, and it was delish!)

let cool for a minute or two and cut before topping with mayo, lettuce, and tomato. you can top the entire pizza, or if you think you'll have leftovers, top it a slice at a time.

never again will i have to pay $20 for this pizza. not that i ever did, but you know... whatever.

Friday, May 22, 2009

beautiful

"makenzy is probably the most adorable thing i've ever come into contact with." ~uncle mike

i know, right!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

persistent praying

so... i take notes at church. laugh if you must, but it helps me focus.

i have piles of notes i have never done anything with. (i wonder if i could decipher them today and remember the message?) because sermons usually bring me such a great sense of peace, i decided this blog may be a good place to post my notes.

this morning's sermon was wonderful; i couldn't write fast enough. it was part of the "if you could ask God one question" series...

how long do i keep on praying when i don't see an answer?

Luke 18- The Story of the Persistent Widow
1-3Jesus told them a story showing that it was necessary for them to pray consistently and never quit. He said, "There was once a judge in some city who never gave God a thought and cared nothing for people. A widow in that city kept after him: 'My rights are being violated. Protect me!'

4-5"He never gave her the time of day. But after this went on and on he said to himself, 'I care nothing what God thinks, even less what people think. But because this widow won't quit badgering me, I'd better do something and see that she gets justice—otherwise I'm going to end up beaten black-and-blue by her pounding.'"

6-8Then the Master said, "Do you hear what that judge, corrupt as he is, is saying? So what makes you think God won't step in and work justice for his chosen people, who continue to cry out for help? Won't he stick up for them? I assure you, he will. He will not drag his feet. But how much of that kind of persistent faith will the Son of Man find on the earth when he returns?"

in life you are always either praying or giving up. persistent prayer does four things:

keeps you focused- (Romans 8:7) prayer reminds us that God is the source of our needs. if our prayers were always answered the moment we asked, two things would happen. one, prayer would become a weapon. we would use it only to get what we wanted. two, God would become a vending machine. when you go to a vending machine, you are only seeking what is inside. we never think of, recognize, or thank the vending machine, the supplier. through persistent prayer, we see and recognize God as our supplier.

Matthew 6:6 when praying we need to remember who we are. so often, especially when praying in public, we intensify and elaborate our requests, we role-play and become someone we're not. when you asked your parents for money, you didn't walk into the room and say, "oh gracious father, i beseech you to impart some money to me." we say, "dad, can i have five bucks?" there is an established relationship there, and that same relationship should exist with your heavenly father.

clarifies my request- when we continue to pray we get to the point where we must decide and determine, "what am i really asking for." we get specific. prayer becomes an actual request, and not a whim...

Romans 8:26 there are times when we don't know how to pray or what to pray. the anger, sadness, confusion, or hurt becomes too great for words. that is when the Holy Spirit can step in and pray on our behalf. continue to pray and ask God to reveal how you should pray.

tests my faith- silver and gold are tested by flames of fire; we are tested by the Lord (Proverbs 17:3) God is never early or late. ask, be specific, and know god will be on time. immediacy doesn't always bring gratification. God is more interested in your character than your comfort... you will be tested.

James 1:3-4 waiting shows maturity. God will delay His response in order to build our muscles of faith.

there was a missionary who knew he was being called to africa, but only had enough money to get to london. after months of waiting, trying to save more, a friend finally suggested that maybe he was to go to london, and then see what God did. he got to london with no money to spare. as he stood around wondering what to do, the holy spirit told him to get in the line to buy a boat ticket. with no money, he nervously stood in line. as he waited and waited, the man ahead of him said he couldn't wait any longer trying to get a refund on his tickets, and he gave them to the missionary.

take the first step... the one you know God wants you to take... and God will reveal the next.

prepares my heart for the answer- Ephisians 3:20 we all think we know what we want and what we need. the truth is, God wants to answer it bigger and better. often our requests are too small. in God's timing, all things are well.


Prayer = Faith= Persistency

Monday, May 4, 2009

spring

i love spring.

the sun, the breeze, the green. all of it brings newness and reminds me of the positives that can come with change...









take time to enjoy the change.




Wednesday, April 22, 2009

the best words

projects are due today, and kids are frantic in an attempt to finish them. my name is whispered, shouted, and demanded from all corners of the room. i do my best to get to all of them as quickly as i can.

some are just more patient than others.

i am just more patient with some.

it has been a stressful, busy day.

but five words, said with such sincerity, brought about a calmness and changed my whole attitude:

"thank you for helping me."

do we thank the people we should?

or if we thank them, do they know what we are thankful for?

"thank you", though a wonderful phase, is not always enough. it doesn't always convey the real message. "thank yous" can sometimes be as aimless and vacant as, "oh, sorry."

i don't mean to take away the sincerity of a genuine "thanks," but, when you really mean it, take the time to tell that someone what, exactly, you are thankful for.

Monday, April 20, 2009

what's in a name

cement angel.

at the climax of my crazy summer, when anger and depression ruled my life, i saw her.

she sat alone in the garden center.

quiet
beautiful
peaceful

she radiated all that i wanted in my life.

i brought her "home" where she lived a few months amongst the flowers as my reminder.

she was the final object to come Home, bringing joy, comfort, peace, and smiles with her.


smiles

i wanted a place to write about food.

but i also wanted a place to post pictures.

but i also wanted a place to write about everyday things that simply make me smile.

my pictures make me smile.

and food makes me smile.

so i chose to bring them all together.

i hope you will smile with me.